I want to hit something, I want to break something.  I'm reading Faulkner, As I Lay Dying, right now for a class.  It's hard to read at times, accents and such, but it's good.  It's better than good.  I can write like this.  I know I can.  What makes it so good?  What does Faulkner have that I don't?  I'll fight him over this.  No I won't, I haven't got the strength or nerve.  I want to write, I want to be wonderful.  My original stuff lags, my fan stuff dies.  I write for myself, I write for other people.  I lose heart when I lose other people because I use them, I use others for support.  Writing brings a relief, but with without recognition it's all just masturbation.  I want to be shared.  For the next few hours I pledge to write.  I will write and I will not be stopped.  I will post.